merry xmas! ok so apart from that im Locking In and here goes my Plan:
so first of all my major is CS + smth social. double major! i like theory. i like Papers.
the main reason i want to study in the US is Research. this is connected to my father, who is a researcher.
he's from another area though - an area i've explored and would like to reconnect with later. HOW do i demonstrate
i want to do research? through publishing! little journals (see Via Scientia's contest, i will be guided GOD BLESS)
or big journals (i'll try to apply to BeyondQuantum, there's like ten days left... I Can Do This). also Please QH
lemme help you with ur research... i Loved the presentation they gave of their two papers last Saturday. it was so cool...
i would've loved to help collect all that info, especially for the cualitative paper! i hope i can get to contribute next year!
ok so that's research. i could also keep up a page? btw creating one from scratch would take A Lot of time, but i can create a notion
page and Then create a github repo and work with the two? like Yea. so that's for research!
now i also want to show them i like competitive programming! i Will participate in M(IT)^2, CALICO, the mass competition, USACO(!!!11!1!!
i think this would be my biggest boost, at least silver plsplspls i Can Do This) and also OPI!!! I only need 100 plsplspls, getting to
the OII would do WONDERS!!! 2027 medal pls. btw when i say pls its to myself... God can help me with motivation i think, but it relies
on me to get all these accolades... big discipline incoming? ok so. thats basically it i think... also kwk + gwc WE GETTING SERIOUS WITH GWC
doing machine learning is a must... ok so its that. Yeah. everything research COMES IN i like reading and writing academically c:
dude this is so cute i hope i really get to do all this PLS [REDACTED] DONT BE A FOOL AND COMMIT!!! i really, really want to come back to
this plan and tell myself i made it. i promised this to myself and i made it.
its so CRAZY that tommorrow's the first day of dec, the last month of the year. id like
to say it flashed by, but im not so sure about that... its just been such a Crazy year like
rlly. lifechanging. well bad news is i Have to work a Lot now. i mean i've been working
like i Did study... i do study. this year hasnt been total rot like 2024. ive worked,
ive achieved things... like 3rd place san marcos, +1500 (MINDBLOWING!!!1111!!!! im so proud :,v),
ummm unac? it was good i guess... plusssss idk quantumhub? getting to opi's finals? ummm returning
to contests? returning to comprog? i refuse to call it by its initials. ummm learned python + cpp
again back to back? umm got accepted to kwk? held an english class for 3 months? yea i put in the
Work i think
anyways i have to work much Harder next year. i CAN DO IT yes i CAN!!! ok and i
created my page and it doesn't suck so yea. there's been some Wins ill have to admit... got to know
some bangers too i mean this hasnt been a bad year At All. but like yk... ok so i already have my
goals for 2026 DOWN and i just have to work towards them.
so im just kind of thinking about how to elevate this page. i know i don't want to show this to my friends so i can be Free. maybe i can create some kind of shrine??? idk who or what to make it about. i mean i already have like the music page? my fav songs, i still have to link them so yeah. theres soooo much work to do but i still think this is a valid thing to lose time to, cause im actually doing something for my page. idkkk theres not a lot of stuff happening in my life rn. actually im kidding LOL so i just finished my quantum course!!! kinda sad tho i feel like ill feel such a Gap in my life... i liked studying for it in class. like yea. but ill get some extra free time i can invest in learning dsa cause i Have to get in like i HAVEEE to get in. i cant sing the please please please let me get what i want song cause my life has never been like super bad, and it wouldnt be the first time i got what i wanted. idk i just dont want to feel like a victim anymore. its annoying and overall just so unfitting... yea well so i gotta Work. but first ill try some stuff with this page... i like how the blog looks, but i do have to add some more stuff to other pages and yea. i think im going to do that now
i keep trying to Remind myself that i should first get the skeleton of my website, and Then try things with css. however i Love css and will always do the most with it.
tried to add more features, tried to fix some other stuff + opened the yygs portal! i checked it briefly, the deadline is 15 oct for early action.
my first attempt at adding a blog page!
im very excited for what 2026 has for me. i know ill have to Work so hard but im honestly very excited to do so! i know i will pay for my sins tho. but that's ok ill keep working! my motivation is everything i love and everyone that loves me and cares for me and wants me to do well. i know i will suffer, but i think no one hates me right now except me. so ill keep that in mind and just put myself in God's hands and Work, Work, Work!!11!